ass=me

I was working on a post yesterday when I got a call to inform me that I did not get a job I had interviewed for. The call came a few days earlier than I was expecting and it caught me off guard. I let it get me down. I did very little with the rest of my day.

In the evening, while feeling sorry for myself, I get a call from my best friend. He tells me that his dad just passed away. He is handling this extremely well. He is taking the loss with great strength. I offer my condolences and extend any help that I can. The remainder of our conversation is what I would categorize as standard type of call for the circumstances. If you are not familiar with these types of calls, you either are extremely lucky to have not experienced this type of loss or you are so emotionally distant from all other living beings that I am sorry for you.

Anyway, after the call, I not only felt the loss of someone I held close to my heart even if I didn't see him much in the last decade, I also felt like a complete ass that I took the news of not getting a job so poorly. The perspective between these events, being so extreme, have forced a new outlook on my current employment, or lack there of. I really need to maintain the perspective of not giving too much importance to a job...any job. The people in my life, friends and family, need to take priority and I feel I need to ensure that I put more emotional effort in those relationships than in any job.

Sorry to post such a downer. It's where my head is at right now. Getting some of this written does help with the process though.

Give someone you love a hug!